My Therapist Says

My Therapist Says There Are ‘Little T’ Traumas and ‘Big T’ Traumas

Excavating those ‘little t’ traumas has helped me chip away at the bigger ones

Sophia June
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4 min readApr 6, 2021

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When I first started going to therapy at 19, I had a pretty good idea of the traumas I wanted to excavate: divorce, parental addiction, eviction — the “big T” traumas that are easy to define in a word.

I used to think the only reason to go to therapy was to talk about trauma like this. I sat in the offices of half a dozen therapists, balling wet Kleenex in my hand and sipping on lukewarm chamomile tea in paper cups, while trying to get them to talk about these big things and changing the subject whenever they wanted to talk about how these big things were affecting me now. But when I finally found a therapist I connected with, who wore a knit pink sweater with a heart on it and sat cross-legged in her chair, I started realizing there was a lot more to excavate than I thought (big surprise!). Instead of these big pillar traumas, there was more like an ant farm tunnel network of traumas, things I couldn’t easily define in a sentence, that felt really bad, but that I didn’t know I was allowed to call traumatic.

My therapist says we can have “small t” traumas and “big T” traumas; bad things that happen…

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Sophia June
Sophia June

Written by Sophia June

Culture writer and news assistant at The New York Times, with words in NYT, NYLON and Pitchfork. Writing about things I like at https://freepizza.substack.com/