Illustration by Anuj Shrestha

Worrying About Worrying About Lyme Disease

One mother reckons with her fear of the illness — and why it freaks us all out so much

amy brill
Elemental
Published in
11 min readJun 24, 2019

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This story is part of “Tickpocalypse,” a multi-part special report.

LLike most people, I can catalog periods of my life by the things I feared, both physical and existential. As a child I was afraid of normal stuff — the dark, roller coasters, monsters — as well as odd, benign things like tomatoes and escalators. But what I feared most back then was undoubtedly the cockroach, that timeless scourge of urban dwellers across millennia. The memory of walking into the kitchen at night, or of the dreaded wee-hours bathroom trip, cringing, waiting for anything with six legs to dash for cover under the harsh flood of fluorescent light, still makes me shudder.

In my twenties, it was the whine of mosquitoes that threatened my sanity as I crisscrossed the globe with my backpack and my DEET, hoping to avoid both adulthood and malaria as long as possible. With school-aged children came lice — don’t even get me started on those.

Then, in 2014, this city girl with peasant stock bought a country house near the beach. There were grasses tall and short, leaf piles, and an acre of backyard that no one had cared for in decades. Our kids were two and five. We shooed them…

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amy brill
Elemental

Writer, traveler, mother, napper, author of The Movement of Stars. amybrill.com